Thinking

Sometimes if i stop to think about it, i mean really think about it. It really scares me. I am talking about Grandma. It has been soo hard to deal with her passing. And the only way i can deal with it, is to push it aside and put it far back in my mind. But sometimes, if i look at her pic or her obituary, it comes to the forefront. And i find myself holding nack tears.

I still miss her soo freakin much it hurts.

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losing it

Its really hard to miscarry even early on. I feel like I will never see what that baby will look like. Would he or she have his eyes or mine? Who would have they acted more like? I will never know this. What I do know is that for 5 weeks I had an angel living in my tummy. I nurtured that angel. And now its up in heaven with Grandma and grandpa. Watching over us all. Its soo hard to deal with.

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In Rememberance of Imogene May Cunningham

If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried...
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried...
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.
~~~~Unknown~~~~



Stay Strong
Lost, confused, and sad.
the pain will never go away
always there.
Lock it up.. Put it to the side.
Don't wanna feel
Just wanna stay numb.
It was your time, I know.
It doesn't make it any easier.
You were our rock,
the glue that held us all together.
Without you, we crumble.
We don't know what to do.
Gotta be strong.
Gotta carry on.
When all I wanna do is scream.
Curse God for taking you away from us.
I MISS YOU SOO MUCH
IT HURTS
SOO
BAD.

Don't wanna believe it.
Wanna stay numb.
No feeling
=
No pain.
Gotta stay strong.
Gotta carry on.
Need to keep my head up.
Remember...
You are in a better place.
No more
Pain,
Sadness,
only good things for you.
Everything you ever deserved and soo much
more.

Gotta believe that,
everything will be ok.
Just gotta stay strong,
gotta carry on.
~~~~by Julia D. aka sunflowerjewelz~~~~~

2 Poems by Me

IN TIME

We lost you soo suddenly.
One minute you were here...
joking,
laughing,
just like any other day.
And SNAP!
You’re gone.
Your light snuffed out,
Never to shine on.

With a heart of gold you were a ---
SON...
BROTHER...
FATHER...
COUSIN.
But most importantly
a FRIEND.

Richard you were named,
But we knew you as
"Bub".
We will always keep
you alive.
Holding a piece of you
in our hearts.
Never Forget.
And tho we may cry now,
in time it will be ok.
And later we will smile when
memories trickle through.

Bub we love you.
We miss you.
And we WILL all
see you again...

In Time.

**this poem is dedicated to my cousin, Richard "Bub" who passed away 08/10/2006**





I AM

I am woman...
Strong, Independent, Wise.

I am woman...
Ready to show you my truth,
That lies inside.

I am woman...
Longing for something more.

I am woman...
Ready to stand my ground.

I am...

WOMAN!